moments i missed..

hi!

finally i'm back.. after some while..

it's good to be home again :)

life's been going pretty fast, that i couldn't coupe with the time..

thought i'd be up after 2 days of rests n long sleep, but guess it failed to make me wake up decent.

btw, for those who didn't know, i just came back from doing my umrah.

went there last 24th and just came back last friday..

i was supposed to arrive much earlier, but i guess i've always had this 'fun' experiences with flights,

so i just let everything be..

i'm back..

and this time it's the 2nd time..

means that i'm supposed to be better than before...

i made a promise in front of kaabah that i'll try very hard to be better,

to try to avoid any act or speech that'll lead to any kind of sin..

i know that it'll be hard to do especially right now, in this condition.

i missed being there,

where all i've ever thought of was how am i gonna ask for forginess for every single sin that i've committed..

where most of my days were spent on reading the quran, performing the prayers with hope that Allah will forgive me and my family, and that He'll let us live longer together so that we can always perform our ibadah together, hoping that He'll hear to all that i have to say, what i wished for in life.

i missed the peaceful feeling i had sitting inside the mosque despite doing nothing but just looking at the kaabah.

Dear Allah,

i really want to be better..

please send me ur guidance so that i won't be lost..

please dear Allah..

U are the One who knows me best inside and out.

Please help me...